12 weeks post open heart surgery

Hi everyone,

How's 'the outside world' doing? Iam feeling like I've been detached from normality for so long now. To do the simplistic of things such as go for a meal with friends and family, or enjoy a evening at the pictures seems such an appealing and also faraway way of life. Gone our my days of rushing round here there and everywhere. When I get out of here, it's a slower pace of life all the way!!

Speaking of getting out of here........

BAD NEWS!!!!!!

I've got to have the whole open heart surgery done again!! I'm totally devastated. I basically have a heart infection and it's eating the new valve. It's the worse thing that could happen. The surgical team are gutted. it is a massive set back and this 2nd operation carrys massive risks, with it being so soon, and also with infection being present in the body. If this 2nd valve gets infected... Well..... Let's not think that way. But it's bad bad bad........
The second operation will be next Friday and I will be taking regular video blogs as soon as I can speak and hold an iPad. I'm not looking forward to it, as I know ow what to expect, the pain on waking up from the operation, when they are taking out the draining tubes etc. urrrggghhhhh, can't even think about it without feeling sick!
I'm trying to get my strength up by eating loads of fruit and calorie dense food. I have managed to loose 12lbs but my aim now, is to put 6-7lbs back on in preparation for the operation, as il probably need all the energy I can to get me through it.
Then ill embark back n the clean eating 3 weeks post op.

Thank you for all your support guys.


Claire xx